I have to admit that I do not enjoy being a lecturer 100%. There are some part in me that wish to be somewhere else, as an HR practitioner. I long for the days when I wore my cute little skirt to the office. I enjoyed conducting interview sessions for new hires. I feel the passion when I was writing down an investigation report of a staff misconduct.
For instance, since coming back from my Master degree studies, I have been assigned to be the coordinator of Latihan Industri (Internship). With almost 200 students in our program, it is not an easy task to do. It is even worse when you have to do all the clerical work while abandoning your main responsibilities, the ones that are being weighted more for your year end review (you are not getting any extra financial allowance for this). It eats you up when at the end of the year , you see your colleagues getting awards for their research achievement. You feel jealous when you are not selected to be in someone's research team , largely due to the fact that they do not view you as capable of conducting a research.
I am complaining, I know. Hopefully I get to go to Portugal again this year. That would really be a reward for myself.